

Vanishing Point
All my life I have loved the sea.
My baby brother and I churning the sand with our toes
Waves melting our prints with each passing
Picnics with gritty sandwiches. Each bite catching my windswept hair in my mouth, peanut butter and strawberry
jam gooping in my split ends
Cheeto powder glued to my fingers
The too bright sun pinking up my skin
Me oblivious to it in those moments
My mother laughing, holding her hat to her head with one hand
So pretty in her carefreeness
The sea cascading its ions over us
Turning negatives into positives like some kind of ancient magic
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These memories assault me as I now footslog to the sea
To the last sliver of beach I will ever know
Heading toward the sea is easy now that no land remains
Our latest home—last of the domed cities—can support us no longer
There are too few of us with fewer resources
Staying here a few more hours means death
Thus have we put our faith in these pills
Tiny wonder-inducing things. They work quickly, if they work
Science’s last effort to save humankind, by transforming it.
Our odds are horrifying, a mere one in 53 surviving
My hands trembled as I brought the pill to my mouth, swallowed
Now, waiting . . .
Is that change I feel, or am I hoping too hard?
Will my gills and webbing evolve in time? Will they work?
Do I want them to?
Many chose not to take the pill
To abide with loved ones, or no ones,
In their remaining breaths
My few companions and I continue
To the narrow peninsula point outside our city
My own seawater streams unbidden down my cheeks
A single sob escapes the woman beside me
Her change has begun, but the child she holds
Remains wholly human
My turn . . .
I urge my legs onward
The black velvet of the water obscuring my feet
The sun’s fractured light spills out
Making it impossible to discern sky from sea
May Poseidon not turn us away
Spreading arms, fingers, toes
I dive in
and vanish
beneath the small waves